hey hey

sorry its been so long! lots of stuff has happened since my last post, so lemme fill ya in!

I went in for my second, and hopefully last, biopsy in March. I still haven't heard back on the results. but I'm starting to think that this Office isn't as together as they look. When i went in the second time for the same procedure i got done in December, the nurse ( who was much less snooty this time around) hands me a release explaining the things that could go wrong all that, to sign. I kinda look at her with what i am sure is dumb look on my face. I haven't seen this before. at all. so i ask her 'shouldn't i have signed this last time?'. which gets me my dumb look returned lol. apparently they 'forgot'. They seem to have also forgot to have me sign for my insurance. which means they forged it. which doesn't make me happy. But as soon as they give me my results, and if they are good, i won't be going back -_-; thanks goodness.


also as i reported Kira still has random issues with her hip, but i can't keep her away from that ball! see how happy she looks :

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she loves that ball! LOL
and so does salem even if he can't catch it, seriously click the picture it makes me giggle like no other!


i also got a new camera! I call it my semi professional camera. I'm trying to take my photography a little more seriously. i'll share one i did of my sister in law and my neice.

I didn't resize this so it may be huge. but it was edited in photoshop to pretend like i had the filters, which of course i don't LOL. but i thought it was great none the less.

I also had an easter egg hunt for my neices and nephews, i'll eventually put up pics of that, but if not they are on my myspace.

OH have i also mentioned my car hates me? apparently it's missing jonny. more on that later too!

and the result of the Biospy is.....

GREAT! got good news ( finally!) the other day. They said the progesterone is doing its job, and the cancer is slowing. Or at least from what i understand, thats what the progesterone does. They say that in 3 months i'll go back up to Syracuse get a biopsy and I think, a D&C. I'm a little unclear if they are going to do the D&C then or schedule it for later. hopefully then. It was okay driving to syracuse when i lived an hour away, but a bit tougher when its 5 hours! I just didn't see the point of transferring doctors, when i only see him in 3 month stints, and i'll be back at Fort Drum at the end of the year. But anyway, after the D&C, i have to wait 6 months, and then i can start trying to have kids again. I'm ecstatic about that. Jonny will be home, and the world set right again!

Sorry for the lack of postings. But really, this blog was supposed to be a conception journal. Dealing with the PCOS and all that, i thought it might be helpful to others, and also keep those interested in my life in tune. But since all that got put on hold its been tough. Its all been just plugging along the waiting game it is.

OH! As a side note, i came home from Fort Drum to get away from the cold and snow! what nerve does Ohio have to dump a crap ton of snow on me! hehe. oh well its still not quite as bad as NY. they've gotten about ten times this amount we have since i left in October. But poor salem can't even get over the snow drifts to pee Hehe.

anyway. Nothing new with me, how are all you doing?

No more fetch for Kira

Well, I feel horrible for my dog, Kira. This dog LIVES for fetch. I'm a firm beleiver that she would eventually die with a tennis ball in her mouth. She just loves to run. But shortly after moving in here, we went out to play fetch, and a few hours later she could barely hold wait on her right leg. I immediatly panicked ( paniced? panic-ed? >.>) and thought " oh no, her hips are starting to go!". I didn't even put two and two together with the ball thing, till later. i set up a vet appointment, in case she did something really wrong, like popped out her hip, or fractured it. SHe is an old dog... but the next day she was walking better and by the third or fourth day she was fine, so i cancelled the appt, thinking she wretched it. Cause, well, she slides and twists all over the place after that ball! I've seen her do somersaults in her younger days LOL! But i decided to break from playing fetch just to give her time to recuperate and all that. but anyway fast forward a month and half, to yesterday. it was incredibly nice, and almost warm, so we went out to burn some of that energy off, and lo and behold, a few hours later she's limping. It makes me so sad to think we can't do the one thing she loves the most in this world, except maybe me ;)I dunno, its hard to come to terms with her getting older. She'll be nine in june, i beleive, which isn't horrible old, but this year was hard on her as far as health. But here's to hoping for many more healthy years yet.


Also on a side note. My car was fixed, but i had that all to well known womens curse happen. It makes a noise for me that sounded like parts of my wheels were dropping out, but noone else but my mother hears it O.o. but there was something that needed fixed, a wheel bearing, or something of that nature. Also it made it to Syracuse, and back without killing us all! But i'm a paranoid fool, and now i swear every creek and rattle it makes, i swear its the car plotting to blow up on me >.>;;

Obviously the computer is fixed also, but slowly but surely other things are blowing up on me. I swear everything mechanical, or electronical ( a word? i think not but i like it anyway!) gets a memo the minute Jonny steps out of the country. who is this memo maker, and where can i maim him at! anywho but its working for the time being. so yay for that at least.

oh and from teh oncologyst we're just waiting on a biopsy result to find out how the hormone therapy is working. If all goes well, i'll be able to start trying for kids again in october! which is just perfect considering jonny will be home in November!!!! anywho thats it in a nutshell. <3

i want my husband home :(

I'm so disgruntled today..... what a day. well, really what a week. First my video card went debunk, and likes to shut off whenever i do anything graphic intensive. which if you know me, i play world of warcraft like crazy. So, we've been trying to figure that out all week, and it alone is stressing me out.

Then to day my mom's follow up appt for her surgery was today and we wanted to get some running done before, and after really. we get in my car, and something starts clunking.... so we stop at a sheetz and everytime you turn the wheel it clunks...apparently a wheel bearing or something went. great. so we went back and took my moms car, who's power steering was so bad, we stopped to get some for it. turns out her water pump was, well, dripping like a fountain. so here we are, with no cars, her appt is today, and we have to drive to Syracuse NY on thursday for my oncologist appt......

i want Jonny home :( he knows what to do when this shit happens not me. i'm just lost without him :( and everything explodes when he's not here :(

uggggggggggggggggggggggg

I'm alive!

i swear it! just been moving about, the first place i was supposed to stay in didn't work out, but luckily my great aunt had an apt, and i'm now living with my mom again LOL. which is okay since she's having surgery tomorrow lol. anyway more later :)

Jessica

My poor girl

This is the infamous E-collar. And the t-shirt >.> now you tell me how she ate a bag of dog food, and finagled outta that shirt!



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and one of salem and jonny just for cuteness :)



But anyway, Time is ticking. Jonny's leaving in a few days. the lovely army moved up his leave date:( only by two days, but still thats two days we had together! I knew, at least deep down that they would move his date, the old one has been in effect for months and months now. Last time he went to Iraq the date changed 7 times before they left, so it was more just waiting for it. :( silly army.

I have to go in for blood work sometime soon, to see if i have to stay on synthroid or not, i'm hoping not. although its the tiniest of my pills being back down to 9 pills a night is better then 10 right? Plus, if i can get off those, it may help my weight loss again, even though its not guarenteed, its still something to look foward too! Oh, and this prgesterone i'm on? about 10ish everynight i start getting the worst case of munchies i've ever had! and thats saying a lot if you know anything about my " wilder" days >.> /innocent i swear. its horrible to resist, so i started just not buying munchies. Its killing me, but i rarely feel like cooking at 10pm, so its working so far! lol.

anywho thats all for now. :) talk to you laters I'm sure.

Hiya :)

So i went to bed really early last night. Well, early for me anyway, about 9 o'clock. To be truthful, i read maybe for about an hour, I just started Brisingr :D. But after a fitful night of sleeping i woke up at 6 am with a headache :( there's not much worse then waking up with a headache :(.
As a result of said headache, i don't feel like doing much of anything today. I walked into the laundry room, and was pleasently surprised that jonny had switched laundry, only to then notice he didn't fold them, just tossed 'em in a basket on the floor :(. Typically man lol. But all i could bring myself to do was sigh at them and walk away. I did manage to start a pot roast, but really thats minimal work anyway, so it sort of fits in with the theme. lol.
Jon's mom came up for a few days this weekend, it was nice. Although i felt bad, since she's an early riser, and well, we're not >.> Jonny Normally is, but he's been on block leave for two weeks, and staying up late with me. so noon has been our morning wake up ;) Its gonna be a rude awakening whenever we do have kids LOL!
OH, on that subject, I think i've touched on it before, about the amount of people who stood up and offered to be a surragate if this cancer took a nasty turn, But most of them there was something that i thought would be a deterant, like one had their tubes tied, one was menopausal. Turns out, at least from what little i can find that both of these people can still carry babies to term. There isn't much of a point to this, but my amazement at what modern science can discover/do. And if the worst happens and i lose my uterus this is a real possibility for me. I would like one biological child, then i'm happy to adopt :D. I want a large family, and i will have it >.> /determined!
Other then that i'm feeling fine, doing fine, just a little overwhelmed with everything going on here. Jon leaves in a week and a half, i move in a about 2 weeks. Even that i don't know how to feel. I am very excited to be moving back home, but saddened by the reasoning why. I don't want him to leave, but i want to be home already. Its confusing, and my eagerness to get home makes me feel like a bad wife. Don't get me wrong i can barely talk about him leaving, I don't want him to go, its just weird having completely oppisite feelings/emotions beating at my head.

OMGoff topic, random story. While his mom was up, we went out to dinner, and then to a local comedy club. We, of course, left kira and salem at home, and put the E-Collar ( big ol' cone thing) on kira. After Moving anything glass she would inevitably knock over, we were confident she would be okay, and left at about 4. about 11 o clock i came home to the weirdest events i have ever experienced in my pet owning life. Kira, being the neurotic dog that she is, somehow managed to do the impossible. We have a T-shirt on her, to deter her from picking at her stitches, she somehow, managed to take off the t-shirt, over her cone, and leave it in the hallway. She also managed to eat ( mind you in a E COLLAR!) a bag of salems Dog food, then puke it all over my new couch and throw pillows. I can not for the life of me figure out how she ate it. all i can imagine is a scoop and catch method.... which makes me giggle uncontrollably. I'll take a pic of her in the collar tonight so you can get an idea of this. it really is absurd. she also poo'd all over. it was crazy. So needless to say we learned our lesson and she will NOT be staying home alone with the E-collar -_-

anywho that was my weekend >.> how's yours?