no more crud!!!!

Ugg just typing that brought on shivers of remembrance. But me and my belly button are all free of crud! i know disgusting right? But a HUGE relief to me! lol. I also noticed today a bit of bruising, but its that "healthy" yellow color right now, so i'm assuming its normal. But everyday I feel better and better :D although i got hit with a cold smack in the middle of recovery! i had an ear infection, that drained into my glands under my jaw, so i was scared for about 24 hours, since i had a sore throat that wouldn't quit. But i decided to give it one more night and took some flu meds. And the next morning I was noticably better, so yay me for putting off a call to the doctor ;)

But yea i go back tuesday to discuss baby making plans, and what not, so i'm excited about that. Ever since the operation, i've been amazingly optimistic, I don't know if i'm setting myself up for failure or what, but i don't know how else to be. I wasn't thrown another curveball, i know what i'm facing now ( slight Male factor, PCOS,) and it doesn't seem all that insurmountable. I really feel that if i can get ovulating that the rest will be a peice of cake. I just feel it you know? My biggest concern right now, is Jonny has some training in wisconsin for two weeks in September. Knowing me, i'll decide to ovulate then, you watch. We do have some of his little men "stored' but i'm not sure how that works.... if we can use and add to it lol, or if its a one time thing. Things to ask on tuesday i'm sure!

anywho a bit of fun for you :

This is what happens when you get to the drive in two hours early >.>





See he decided to see how close he could get the chair to the steering wheel >.> my oddball hubby



and one for cuteness : my nieces, heather and Harleigh

after surgery

well i had the surgery yesterday, and i have to tell you, it wasn't near as bad as i made myself think it would be! we had to wait in the prep room for about an hour and a half, apparently the person before me, her surgery went a bit long. But really that was the only bad part. Oh and those stupid ( but needed) blood clot compression socks -_-;;;

I went in the O.R. and was talking to the anesthesiologist (sp) and next thing you know i was waking up and seriously annoyed that something was stuck to my forehead... One of the nurses came in and asked how i was, and i just said thirsty and asked what was on my forhead LOL. But about 20 minutes later i was dressed and being wheeled out to the car. and not because they wanted to get rid of me, but just 'cause i was ready to go! ( i was starving!) We picked up some food came home and i felt fine. My shoulder hurt from teh gas they out in you tummy, and i wasn't doing jumping jacks anytime soon but i was walking around the house, even made a crab dip ;)

Then, when i was trying to find the incision scars, i touched my belly button.... I guess to understand my distress you should know i hate belly buttons. noone can touch mine without inflicting a gag reflex, nor can i touch other peoples. I can barely even touch my own, and that took tons of conditioning >.> but i touched my belly button adn its FULL of glue :( its like a little plug and its making my stomach turn just thinking about it -_- i just want to get it out :( but i'm afraid i'll open the incision, so that is the ONLY thing keeping me from digging it out.... bah.

But anyway the Surgery went great, i didn't even have the polyp that the other DR. said i had, And dr kiltz said everything was dandy and working, no scar tissue or anything, and clear tubes. IF we can get me to ovulate we'll be dandy. At least i know thats all i'm battleing at the moment. and with the ovarian drilling and metforming i am highly positive that something will come of this :D just hope/pray/wish that i don't ovulate while jonny is takeing that military class for 2 weeks in sept >.>

anyway friends, remember you don't need an account to post a comment, and much love :D

The surgery, day before

well, they called i have my appt. tomarrow at 10am. At least its not at the butt crack of dawn >.> lol. but i doubt i'll get much sleep tonight regardless. She said it would be between 1/2 an hour to an hour and a half, with round about 2 hours recovery. We should be home later in the evening if anyone wants to call and see how it went, i'll probably be sleeping though ;)

I'm hella nervous but i'll get over it :D that and a darn ear infection that snuck up on me. but even thats getting better. anyway short post for now, maybe this afternoon I'll post on our trip to A-Bay sunday. got some awesome pictures :) those are on my myspace as i type so check em out :)

off to go get my pain meds
Jessica

garage sales!

So the base had a "base wide community garage sale" today. I was up at 7 am and out there till 4ish. I must say, I'm TIRED!! It was a lot more work then i thought it would be. But i happily got rid of lots of "junk" ;) I got rid of my old liveing room set ( YAY!) and old microwave, adn tons of other stuff. I even made a bit of money. I went in with my neighbors to pull in more people since most of my stuff was bigger items. It went really well i think all together, and beleive it or not, I was social!!!!!!!

My mom also made it up :D i'm excited, even though its being shadowed by the impending surgery, but one day at a time. Tomarrow its up to alexandria bay for the 1,000 island boat tour/boydts castle tour. 4 years and i still haven't done the tourist thing up here >.>

Oh and My Dr's office sent me all the info on the surgery's' the other day. I'm in love with this place, they are just so organized, so thoughtful, and such a change form Dreaded Dr. D. I know I'm in good hands with them, but that doesn't stop the nerves all the way!

i should be ...

Cleaning... But i just woke up and i cna't bring myself to do much of anything the first hour or so after i wake up. I've let the house go in the last few days, with the getting Jonny ready, and just plain no 'gumption'. But now, i have a garage sale tomarrow, my mom is coming up, also tomarrow, for my surgery on Tuesday. So it really needs done. there's Boxes everywhere >.<

I already went out and said hello to the all my neighbors on the front lawn >.> Thats where they all hang out, causing my dogs to bark on and off all day. I wish they would just get used to it. I hate barking dogs, i always feel like it bothers my neighbors, which is silly since they are all out in yard. I'm sorta the outcast, since i'm sort of a hermit ><;; Plus i really feel odd not having kids yet on an army base O.o i swear if you have housing and no kids, they look at you like you have the plague! But i've been better being slightly more social -_- i finally know their names now! I've strategically worked conversations for the last year to not having to use them >.> ugh well off to clean!!!!! anyone know a good maid? LOL

silly army -_-

Ug so generally i love being a military wife. It suits us pretty well, minus the deployments. But even then we've only had one in about 5 years. From what i remember, that deployment went smoothly, with little to no hiccups. This deployment on the other hand...

They're set to leave in october, and a little over a week ago they were told they had till sept7th to get their tough boxes( the personal stuff they want to take) and I'm not sure the date on their actual equipment. After being told that, like the next day the date was changed to, well, tomarrow. So he's been out late everyday this week, he isn't even home now, and its 7pm -_-. and he hasn't even finished his tough box at home. its hard to plan what you think you might want over there for a year in less then a week. His Unit has just been rushing like mad men this deployment. We've known about it for months and months, you think they wouldn't wait till the last minute.

Then to top it off, he has to go to a class in Virginia for two weeks in september:( Which don't get me wrong lots of the men in his unit are much worse of, i know some have had back to back gunnery's and classes, barely seeing their families for a day or two and then running off again. AND still haveing to get their stuff packed and ready by tomarrow. But it still makes me sad.

Although it will give me boredom motivation to pack more >.> I'm getting ready to try and move back to ohio when he leaves. If all goes well i would like to be preggers then and like last post keep trying after he leaves, and i don't want to be alone with no family while doing all that. Its incredibly hard to pack up while still trying to live here Lol. you never know what you might need >.>

anyway back to waiting for him to get home <3

what happened next

anyway, i went in for the dye test, and i tell you what. That test needs a disclaimer. Its incredibly unomfortable -_-;;; but turns out i have a polyp in my uterus, ><. when it rains it pours i suppose.

The follow up appt to the dye test was god aweful. I brought my mother along, she's my resident doctor, lol. I call her concerning all things medical, since she's in that field. But she drove all the way up here from Ohio, just to ask the doctor questions about PCOS. It was like talking to a brick wall. every question we asked he gave yes or no answers. I asked what my husbands sperm count was and he went into a ten minute lecture on what was wrong with his sperm >.> I still don't know what the count was lol. He also didn't want to do anything with the polyp that was blocking my ovary, he wanted to just ignore it -_-. which i guess, greatly increases my chance of entropic ( i think thats what its called) pregnancy. But anyway i was so fed up towards the end i wanted a new Dr, and low and behold he pushed me off to another Specialist. so then i had to wait another month just to get into these people.


waiting wouldn't be to bad, except I'm trying really hard to get pregnant before my husbands deployment. which is in october. and i wasn't getting into Dr. Kiltz' office till july -_-. Mind you i started this in april.

anyway absolutly LOVE this new dr's office. they were so helpful, and told me a lot about PCOS and what goes along with it. Turns out i should have been on medication for it Months ago. So now i'm taking Glumetza ( metformin) for my insulin resistance, and synthroid for a slightly abnormal thyroid. Its a crazy amount of glumetza, 2000 mgs a day, but its Extended release, so my side effects are about nil. Except when i eat too many carbs -_- then i spend the day getting to know the bathroom by memory ;) But i'm learning, mostly by trial and error what are good carbs, bad carbs and how much of each i can eat a day. Right now we're waiting to see if my periods regulate, with just metformin alone.

Oh and i also have surgery this tuesday, a laproscopy, hyster-something or other, ovarian drilling ( sounds worse then it is) and to get the polyp removed. Its a day surgery and i'll be out the same day. but i will be intibated, and i'm scared :( But Ovarian drilling alone has a 50ish % succcess rate of pregnancy within the first year. and OH we get a military discount on freezing Jonny's little men :D sooooo i'll get to keep trying after he leaves. Now the rumors on who i slept with when he was gone, is a whole 'nother story. But we know the truth and thats all that matters :D

well thats about as up to date as i can get on the fertility battle. Now we can get ti everyday posting, like how jonny's unit is crazy -_- but thats for a later date :)

~jessica

long ago....

So here's what all has happened. Me and jonny, have been trying to have a baby for almost three years, maybe more now. I really am awful at gageing time -_-;;. so after much putting off i finally go to a gynocologist, for a regular check up, and a referal. Tricare works all weird. you have to have a reference to go to a "speciality" doctor.

Well after being reprimanded like 8 times for not coming in sooner ( it had been like 6 years >.> ) i got my tests done and a referal for a Dr, lets call him Dr. D :)
I couldn't get into him till the next month or so. But the next morning i get a call from the pap smear Dr. But of course i was sleeping so all i got was Jonny calling me the dr called him and that it was important that i call him back.... Okay so right then i think i had a heart attack. I had every possible horrible diagnoses going through my head in a matter of a minute... so I rush ( rather groggily to a phone and try to call him back. and of course he wasn't there.... so for about an hour, I fretted adn stressed waiting for the call back. I was sure i had cancer, or something of the like. He finally calls back... turns out i had an infection, thats it.... i nearly collapsed. he also told me that it could be why i was having trouble conceiveing. false hope #1 lol.


well i took my meds, got put on prenatals, and waited to see Dr. D. He was interesting when i first got there. It was just sort of a "get to know you appt" we sat in a room, and he asked questions, i answered then he proceeded to talk so fast that to this day, i have no clue what he was talking about.I know i heard disorder or syndrome in there somewhere. He ordered blood work, and an ultrasound, and sent me on my way. Oh and a lovely semen analysis for Jonny.


I was actually concerned a bit for jon's semen analysis, you all those tv shows, where the men freak out over it. Its like taking a jab at their masculinity or so they portray it. He's been amazing about it though, i could just kiss him for being such a trooper :) actually i think i did :D

But the Blood work, ultrasound and semen came back. I was then diagnosed with PCOS ( poly cystic ovarian syndrome) and jons semen analysis came back abnormal. Honestly the first thought in my head was " well...shit." from what i understood it isn't impossible to get pregnant, but its definetly going to be interesting.

I know now, about MY Pcos, but at the time, Dr. D didn't tell me anything, or suggest how to manage it, or even what it was aside from a hormone imbalance and cysts on my ovaries. I tried to ask him questions but he either wasn't listening or didn;t know. Everything, until recently, i learned about PCOS was from the internet. PCOS is an Insulin resistance, that screws with everything. The IR causes to much testosterone in your system, causeing hairgrowth and thick ovarian skin ( i don't know if thats a word >.>) The fertility issues stems from because of all that, i can't seem to ovulate very well. we only have a few periods a year, and some ( not all) become overweight because of all that.


but he ( dr d) decided to do a dye test, and that teh plan of action beside that was Clomid, adn then IUI's. Clomid is a drug that helps stimulate growth in your ovarians, helping us to ovulate. and IUI's is where you ovualate, adn they put sperm directly into your uterus. So as far as i knew that was what was going to happen. and that was back in may -_-

Okay I lied...

I decided to attempt this tonight. At least part-way. Maybe give you a bit of a backround on my family. hehe.

Well, there is me, Jessica, I'm 24, and currently a housewife. I had an excellent job working with devolepmentally disabled Individuals, I had the time of my life there, it was an ICF, and the 10 people in the house were 38+ years, but man they kept me on my toes :D but lack of two cars caused me to put that on hold.
I grew up in Ohio, in a small town, but i miss it everyday. I now live with my husband of 4 years at an army base called Fort Drum, in upstate NY. Its not a bad life, and we've been lucky, only one deployment, and one inc deployment in those 4 years.
I'm a very novice artist, but i only dabble, i've thought of going to school for it but we'll see ;).

Then there is Jonathan, my love and light. He's 26....er 27 ( I'm horrid at that i swear!) He's in the army like i said, lol, and he is a NBC, nuclear biological chemical. He's even edumacated, and has a chemical engineering degree! We're hoping that he gets Officer approved while he's in Iraq, as long as everything checks out :D
He also grew up in ohio near me, but different school district. We actually met when he was my boss at Mcdonalds, when I was 15. took me a LONG year of "woo'ing" but i finally got him to date me when i was 16! the rest as we say, is history!!!

there's also two other members of our family...my "kids" at the moment. You'll here a lot about them i'm sure. i dote on them like no others. First is my old lady, Kira, my australian shepard mix. She came to us at a very special time about 6-7 years ago. I had no intention of keeping kira, see a friend's dog had puppies, and i knew most of the people he let the puppies go home with. One of the Girls parents, threw a fit, and she was going to toss this little defenseless puppy in the woods :( well i couldn't let that happen, at all... so i took her, thinking i was just going to return her to her mom, and litter mates. But first, a pit stop.....
See My mom was haveing a horrid time with her divorce, and could barely get out of bed. So i decided some puppy therapy was in order!! I came home, tossed Kira on the bed ( okay not tossed, calmly place rather :P ) and 6-7 years old she's my darling old gal. she never did come close to making it back to the litter >.>
The other is my little man of the house,salem, who just turned two in january. He's my long haired chihauhua :) he's all red with this weird white stocking thats spotted red....it looks like someone hastily wrapped a bandage on his foot. All the time people ask me how he hurt himself >< He's been a crazy addition who gets away with murder....i don't even think he knows how to sit.... Don't get me wrong he's pretty well trained. he's house trained, knows not to beg, although he tries, knows general commands, and stays with me in the community yard off leash. Just tricks are beyond his attention span Lol.

thats my family crazy insane as they are, i love em. Now i swear, tomarrow i will write about what i intend to write most about. My infertility issues, and what not. good fun right? well mebbe not. >.> ^ ^ see ya

Jessica


kira ^ ^ looking all cute

salem, although you can't see his paw >.>

omg he actually looks like a chihauhua here!!!!!!!!! Lol silly floppy/lazy ears

this is Jonny, and this is the first thing he did upon entering the house when he got back from his first tour LOL ( we really don't drink that much, and me not at all anymore lol)

Just starting off...

Welp, here I am. I don't know why exactly i'm starting this, I'm not much of a writer. But i've been wanting to make sort of a running dialogue of us ( me and my husband) trying to have children, military life, so on. I'll post tomarrow i think, I'm not feeling well at all today, on a summery of what's happened so far in the last 6 months. anywho enough for now :)



~Jessica